I always felt like there was something greater to life; the problem was that I did not know what that “something” was and how to tap into it, and so I ended up falling into the fold of the mundane.
Without realizing it though, I had been slowly searching through various spiritual systems to try and understand what it was I was looking for. Then, after coming across the teachings of Gnosis, my life took on a whole new meaning and perspective. Gnosis has given me the tools to understand what that “something” was, and to explore it in a deep and quantifiable way. Its simple techniques have brought forth a strong yearning to find the spiritual within, to uncover the truth about life & death, about my past & future, and to uncover what many spiritual traditions and sages have been trying to teach humanity throughout the ages: how to bring about a real change & peace within.
My experience with The Gnostic Movement, both as a student of the various courses and as a teacher has been quite extraordinary. From the very first course I attended, a course on Astral Travel and Dreams, I gained so much knowledge about myself and about the possibility of directly finding answers to the very questions that have baffled me all throughout my life. The course itself was an incredible experience – it was amazing to find a room full of people, bustling with enthusiasm at the possibility of discovering whether it is possible to have a conscious experience out of the body; a warm community where people shared their experiences and encouraged each other to attain experiences through the various practices taught; a knowledgeable and experienced instructor who helped me so much along my learning process; and a load of practical exercises provided, which enabled me to gain many valuable mystical experiences and teachings. Needless to say, I stuck around for all other courses offered, and have found them as enjoyable and as profound as a student as I do now as a teacher.
Beyond the teachings and experiences I was acquiring through putting Gnosis into practice, I was also getting to know many people within The Gnostic Movement interested in the same things as me, and I was making many new friends, amongst whom I also met my remarkable husband. The thing that really stood out to me in this group of Gnostic friends was this sense of union, a brotherhood of sorts that everyone was working towards establishing. Unlike my old acquaintances, there was no competition in this group – everyone was united with this common aim of acquiring something spiritual within, and I wanted that in myself as well.
I was also very impressed with Mark Pritchard, Belzebuub, whom at the beginning I only knew as an author of the courses. He was not yet a well known public figure at the time, so I only knew him through his writings. I was very impressed with his no-nonsensical approach to subjects that can typically fill pages of flowery and over-embellished spiritual matter. He laid it all out so simply and yet there was power in his instructions too – a peaceful strength that you picked up on when reading the weekly readings. The techniques that he taught made me feel and understand that these spiritual subjects are not just things to read, but something I could really put into practice and achieve for myself. Later on, when meeting him in person, I was even more impressed with his character – so peaceful, honest, humble, strong, and most importantly so normal!
It reminds me of a part on one of the Gnostic Gospels where Jesus is disguised as a merchant selling pearls:
“And having said these things, he cried out, “Pearls! Pearls!” The rich men of that city heard his voice. They came out of their hidden storerooms. And some were looking out from the storerooms of their houses. Others looked out from their upper windows. And they did not see (that they could gain) anything from him, because there was no pouch on his back nor bundle inside his cloth and napkin. And because of their disdain they did not even acknowledge him. He, for his part, did not reveal himself to them. They returned to their storerooms, saying, “This man is mocking us.”
~ The Acts of Peter and the Twelve Apostles
I am so grateful today to be sitting here and sharing this experience with others. I feel that I have been given something truly wonderful, a precious gift, that “pearl” that Jesus spoke of—something that cannot be taken away by anyone, try as they may.
Jenny
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Great to see that you’re ‘storing up your treasures in heaven’ Jenny. Thanks for sharing and much strength to you in prying open those oysters.
Thanks Michael. Those oysters sure are tough, but the pearl is worth it
Precious pearls indeed Jenny, interesting that they cannot be taken away from us but can be shared in a way that does not diminish them.
Thanks for sharing your story
That’s a neat way of putting it, Scott.
Thank you for that Jenny. Beautifully said. Definitely it has felt like Gnosis is a gift, a free gift somehow landing in our hands, not even realizing what it is, a gentle urge perhaps to make our way somewhere, coincidence or what have you, but to this day I cannot believe how its come to me nor foreseen the multi-purpose abilities it has
The coincidence was that you left that poster on that obscure board! Thanks a million, Olga.
Ah, but you see, I had strict orders from Jordan’s Guardian Angel
Thank you for sharing your story Jenny. Yes that pearl is quite something and as you remarked, people tend to expect spiritual people to look a certain way – but it is in the action and words that true spirituality comes out.
It reminds me of an encounter with someone who ‘acted and wore garments’ to be make her recognized as very spiritual and was giving teachings to others – yet when I was around that person, I noticed so many actions of carelessness, of unethical details and ways of being that bore light to what was truly within that person.
Spirituality is not in the garments, nor is it a commercial thing – it is truly a special pearl that we can each find and hold for ourselves if we know where to find it and how to acquire it.
Like so many have said, I am very thankful for Belsebuub’s teachings and The Gnostic Movement. It has allowed me to discover that this pearl talked in ancient texts does really exist and how to acquire it.
Thanks for your comment, Geraldine. Unfortunately I’ve had such encounters as well, and was never truly impressed. I think that is why meeting and learning from Mark and Edith really touched me in a simple & very genuine way.
Thanks Jenny, I know just what you mean about looking for that “something” more in life, without really knowing what it was, and then finding Gnosis opened the way to explore it.
I like the way you explained Belsebuub’s teachings too. I don’t think I would have gotten into Gnosis without them, becasue I was pretty cynical about spirituality, but his straight-forward clear approach helped me to take up Gnosis in a practical way in my life, that brought real results.
I hope more people can benefit from these pearls, if they want to receive them.
PS. What do you think about being called remarkable Jordan? Is there an emoticon I can use for that
I would never have given gnosis a “go” without Belsebuub for the same reasons you describe Matthew. His books guided me to find that spirituality is something living, more than a belief.
Well Jordan started it
This is a nice account of your experience, thanks for sharing Jenny. I can definitely relate to the part you mentioned about how you can feel that sense of brotherhood among the people you’ve met through gnosis. I feel the same way, and its definitely different than other groups I’ve been a part of before. That sense of camaraderie runs so deep, and I think you’re right that it all comes back to that shared aim of achieving the spiritual within.
The sense of community among practicing Gnostics really is something special – something I too have felt very strongly from the beginning of my involvement with the courses, teaching, and of course – retreats!
Thank you Jenny for sharing your experience. I liked very much the part of the Gnostic Gospels you included. I feel too that we have pearls in our hands and I hope we all have the strength and the patience to use them the best way we can.
Thanks for sharing your experience Jenny and that quote at the end.
I love the way you describe your experience with finding these teachings because I felt really the same way. Before Gnosis I too wanted ‘more’ out of life but didn’t know what that ‘more’ was or how to get it. I am really lucky because in a way Gnosis kind of found me and I’ve had the amazing opportunity understand, explore, and experience what that ‘more’ was that I was after all those years. It still kind of gives me chills with how lucky I am to have been introduced to these teachings! They are a real pearl, something special and truly valuable that I too am very grateful for.
Very nicely put Jenny – a pearl indeed! That quote from Gospels is also very fitting for Belsebuub I think, as there are apparently many people who are not able to appreciate the clarity and depth of his teachings, and are searching for a more “glittery” doctrine, which they certainly find in various pseudo-teachings.
“And they did not see (that they could gain) anything from him, because there was no pouch on his back nor bundle inside his cloth and napkin.”
Hello Jenny, thanks for sharing your experience, it’s great to hear from you, I can also relate to much of what you’ve said.
That’s a really nice quote that you’ve used, from an amazing text, and speaks volumes about the search for spirituality today.
Thanks Sabah! It’s become one of my favourite texts.
I really enjoyed reading this account Jenny.
Thanks,
Jordan
A very nice post Jenny, thanks for sharing. I’ve always loved that story from The Acts of Peter and the Twelve Apostles, and it captures so well what you are trying to express.
A real brotherhood in carrying out the work is also something priceless, giving a lot of support and inspiration.
Jenny, thanks for sharing your inspiring story. You have really put the gifts of Gnosis and Belsebuub’s teachings into perspective in this account.